All that You Can't Leave Behind

"You didn't know, cause you didn't even ask" -Payton

One Tree Hill quote, that's right, it's here, and on the internet, never to be erased. I thought to write tonight because I don't. I never put my thoughts anywhere and they need to be let out, there's no more room in here! 

Growing-up with brothers, in an abnormal family to say the least, we didn't know what to do with emotions, feeling, thoughts or even just love. Somewhere in fighting, divorce, and death I think we all lost some ourselves. My brothers and I saw hearts get misused, heard screams of every wrong emotion, and love get taken, and after so much was stolen,and then even more was somehow able to be robbed. 

When you learn to not be emotional it's hard to then learn to release the garbage. All the negative, all the feelings, and the terrible thoughts that have been building for 19 long years. 

So, here is to the release...